Praying for Sun
It's raining yet again here in the Bay Area. What...didn't we have something like 26 days of rain in March...? And April has already surpassed it's normal, or usual, inches of rainfall for the ENTIRE MONTH and we're just thru the first week. I normally love cold weather: bundling myself up in thick, wooley sweaters, donning jeans, boots, and fluffy scarves. Normally I can't get enough of it. But honestly, I've had enough. Really, I have.
The house feels cold again, too, but I just checked. It's only 67 degrees in here. Normally that's tolerable for me - just warm enough to stave off PG&E from giving me a $300+ heating bill, but not so bad that I'm shivering.
But this cold is ceaseless. It's creeping into my bones...my feet feel like icicles. But this is exactly what happened in our first IVF cycle: I was cold all of the time...nothing would warm me. I'd sleep in pajamas with two thick down comforters on me. Socks even. I am certain that the sight of me coming to bed with so many clothes on had to be a major turnoff for J. But what could I do? Then I'd wake in the middle of the night in a torrential sweat. Pajamas completely drenched and stuck to my every nook and cranny. I would be afraid to take them off because I knew that the moment I did, I'd freeze again.
I've been on the birth control pills for about two weeks now and I wonder if this might explain it all? I know that the lupron fucks with us all big time, and in many different ways, but are the BCPs enough to do it as well? I know I've been more snappy and bitchy than usual (J: bite your tongue!) and they might be to blame for that.
Another odd thing I noticed today is that I smudged just a bit along with some EW and I've been having left ovary pain all day long. (Sorry if that was too much information but there you have it). God, I'd think I was ovulating if I didn't know better. It feels a bit similar to an ovarian cyst...so perhaps I'll dash off for a quick U/S on Monday or Tuesday just to make sure that there's nothing amiss. It would be a drag to keep taking the BCPs up til my baseline U/S with Dr. Z and THEN to find out I've got a cyst and that my cycle is being cancelled.
But maybe being cancelled would be a blessing with all that I've got on my plate at the moment?
The house feels cold again, too, but I just checked. It's only 67 degrees in here. Normally that's tolerable for me - just warm enough to stave off PG&E from giving me a $300+ heating bill, but not so bad that I'm shivering.
But this cold is ceaseless. It's creeping into my bones...my feet feel like icicles. But this is exactly what happened in our first IVF cycle: I was cold all of the time...nothing would warm me. I'd sleep in pajamas with two thick down comforters on me. Socks even. I am certain that the sight of me coming to bed with so many clothes on had to be a major turnoff for J. But what could I do? Then I'd wake in the middle of the night in a torrential sweat. Pajamas completely drenched and stuck to my every nook and cranny. I would be afraid to take them off because I knew that the moment I did, I'd freeze again.
I've been on the birth control pills for about two weeks now and I wonder if this might explain it all? I know that the lupron fucks with us all big time, and in many different ways, but are the BCPs enough to do it as well? I know I've been more snappy and bitchy than usual (J: bite your tongue!) and they might be to blame for that.
Another odd thing I noticed today is that I smudged just a bit along with some EW and I've been having left ovary pain all day long. (Sorry if that was too much information but there you have it). God, I'd think I was ovulating if I didn't know better. It feels a bit similar to an ovarian cyst...so perhaps I'll dash off for a quick U/S on Monday or Tuesday just to make sure that there's nothing amiss. It would be a drag to keep taking the BCPs up til my baseline U/S with Dr. Z and THEN to find out I've got a cyst and that my cycle is being cancelled.
But maybe being cancelled would be a blessing with all that I've got on my plate at the moment?
posted by linda at 10:54 PM
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