CD5, maybe

Today's CD5 of what may or may not wind up being a cycle that we do our FET in. There's a lot going on so it's doubtful, but just in case I am starting my lovenox and dexamethazone in the morning.

I'm already on quite a cocktail of drugs: synthroid (for my quasi low thyroid, low for fertility, normal for everyone else), lexapro (for my low serotonin, 73 on a scale of 100 to 225), folgard 2.2 (for my MTHFR mutation) and I am just tonight finishing up a batch of doxycycline after my endometrial biopsy, which was done last Friday. The doxy is self medicated, but I wasn't about to take any chances with a uterine infection at this point.

The biopsy was ordered by Dr. S to look for NKU cells in my uterus. They may or may not be there, but there's an increased chance that they will be found simply due to the fact that I did have endometriosis. If they are there, the course of treatment is injectible humira. If they're not there, the course of treatment is, again, humira because I did indeed have endometriosis. Kind of a catch-22 with the humira stuff, but the stats do show an increased rate of pregnancy and birth with humira. So humira it is. Humira is friggin' expensive. Something like $700 a shot. Thru friends here and there I was able to get ahold of 4 shots (2 month's worth). Let me tell you what a relief that was. This IF business is breaking us financially and to get little breaks here and there...well, it makes it a bit easier. Thank you ladies.

The downside to this humira crap is that it will cause me to have a cytokine flare. Maybe an NK flare, too. The only course of treatment for the cytokine flare is IVIg. At $2015 a pop. And I'll need two doses of it. The course of treatment for the potential NKs is IVIg, lovenox, and dexamethazone. So now you see why I am starting the lovenox and dex tomorrow. My thinking is that if I start it now I may be able to stave off some of the NKs that will form with each successive humira shot.

So between Monday and Wednesday, J and I will test our LADs and I will check my NKs and cytokines to see what sort of flare I am experiencing. Monday is also humira shot #2 night. We dropped off the biopsy last Monday so hopefully we'll have the test results by next Friday. If everything looks good on Friday, there is a chance, a small chance that we'll have the green light to FET this month. If not, it'll be next month. My gut tells me that it'll be next month because we've still not coordinated my IVIg treatments...and I think if I were to be FET'ing this month, IVIg #1 would be, like, tomorrow, and the second one would be 2 days before transfer. Or the 23rd or so.

I'm having a hard time keeping my cycle straight, but writing it down here kind of helps me to see the path ahead. I am feeling exhausted from the lexapro, and somewhat headachey, but I hope that this will pass in a few days. Otherwise I think I will start to cut the tablets in half to see if the symptoms pass.

I've decided that if this FET doesn't work that the only recourse for J and I is to go to Reykjavik and drink like fish at the Iceland Indie Music Festival.