CD26: 7DP3.5DT
FRED #4
And it gets worse.
Today's HPT showed absolutely nothing. Not even the faintest of lines.
I guess this beta party is over. Kaput. Really, there's no need to go to my OB's office for a serum beta today.
If I had a beta of 50 this coming Friday, and let's be honest, an initial beta of 50 is nothing to write home about. But a beta of 50 on Friday would mean that, according to a 48 or 72 hour doubling time, my beta today or tomorrow would be at least 25, and that sistahs, is enough to show a line on a HPT.
No line today means that there's a small chance of a decent beta on Friday.
I just don't fucking understand it. Why won't anything grow in me?
I've done almost everything known to IF medicine save for a few random things like intralipids and visiting Dr. Hungarian in NYC.
J and I are going to get a karyotype done this week and see if that provides any answers. Why we haven't had this done before? Who knows. You would have thought Dr. Moustache would have ordered one by now, but he hasn't.
I don't know where this leaves us. I'll keep HPTing and I'll get the labslips from my OB today just in case I get a bit of a line tomorrow or the next day.
But it just feels dismal.
I think I'm going to go and chew off my arm or something.
Today's HPT showed absolutely nothing. Not even the faintest of lines.
I guess this beta party is over. Kaput. Really, there's no need to go to my OB's office for a serum beta today.
If I had a beta of 50 this coming Friday, and let's be honest, an initial beta of 50 is nothing to write home about. But a beta of 50 on Friday would mean that, according to a 48 or 72 hour doubling time, my beta today or tomorrow would be at least 25, and that sistahs, is enough to show a line on a HPT.
No line today means that there's a small chance of a decent beta on Friday.
I just don't fucking understand it. Why won't anything grow in me?
I've done almost everything known to IF medicine save for a few random things like intralipids and visiting Dr. Hungarian in NYC.
J and I are going to get a karyotype done this week and see if that provides any answers. Why we haven't had this done before? Who knows. You would have thought Dr. Moustache would have ordered one by now, but he hasn't.
I don't know where this leaves us. I'll keep HPTing and I'll get the labslips from my OB today just in case I get a bit of a line tomorrow or the next day.
But it just feels dismal.
I think I'm going to go and chew off my arm or something.
posted by linda at 9:05 AM
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post a commentLinda,
The fat lady has NOT sung yet. My friend Melissa (patient of Dr. Moustache) took a HPT on the day of her beta and it was negative. She now has a three month old baby girl.
HANG in there. I know it's difficult, but you are almost at the finish line. Have faith.
I'm thinking of you!
xoxo
Amanda
Yes, hang in there. Don't go to black. And if this doesn't work, maybe Dr. H in NY is the next step. I'm crossing my fingers for you, hon!
Get the beta on Friday. No matter what. HPTs are evil, but you know that already.
FETs are always low beta when they work out. Don't give up just yet.
And keep in mind that the percentages for fets are always about half of fresh. Always. Even if you were transferring perfect DE blasts chances are only around 20-25%.
So I don't want you thinking 'why won't anything grow in me?' Ok. It can take many tries until you get lucky. Because as much as we want to know if we do x,y,z it really is about luck. And that sucks because we can't control that.
Wanna have lunch on Thursday or tomorrow to help pass the time?
I tried to stop by earlier, but you know blogger...
I definitely think you should not make any decisions this early. I would stop using the HPTs though. They are obviously psyching you out long before they should.
Unfortunately I know how you feel.
Not entirely sure if it's too early for commiserations or not? Agree with dd - ditch the sticks. Having the jolt of realism can be good ... but now maybe its time give in to whatever will be.
Will keep stopping by and waiting on your Beta.
I know it's human nature to start blaming yourself and putting up the walls and blah blah, but honestly, let this play out first. Before you decide anything. Thinking of you.
wow, Linda...I feel your pain and I am not jealous. This is the hardest place to be in and you already know the rollercoaster you could go on if it's negative. However, I am so impressed you and your DH are already making plans to go to NYC. You 2 are incredible. I have been reading Dr. Hungarian's boards and thinking he maybe on to something too.
Marley