CD3: The Lexapro Rollercoaster

I think I've been off of the lexapro for 5 days now. It hasn't been easy quitting this fast. I've had terrible nausea for days, light bothers my eyes intensely, driving in a car makes all of the nasty symptoms come together at once.

So far this morning I haven't felt nausea. Yet. It might happen once I get out into bright light, but I am so hoping that it's gone for good. I was reading an email from a girlfriend of mine, AP, who is an IF that's thrown in the towel after 3 IVFs.

She and her DH are adopting a Russian baby and hope to be placed next summer. She wrote a line at the end of her email that had me in tears:

I just know that there is a child out there who needs me and "B" as much as we need her.

That did me in. But for the first time in a long time, I felt. I cried. I truly felt pain.

I think I'm nearly back.