Defiant Ovaries

I had my first face-to-face with Dr. Generous which included an U/S and catheter check. I'm totally thrilled with Dr. Generous so far. I hate to totally fall for my REs as I did for the last two for when the honeymoon was over I felt like the carpet had been pulled out from underneath me.

Before heading in for the U/S I met with Dr. Generous in her office. She went over my latest CD3 FSH/E2 values. My FSH just two weeks ago was a mere 5.6. Sweet Jesus. It has NEVER been than low since I started testing 2 years ago. Never I say. My E2 was a bit elevated at 72 or 73, but hell, it's been as high as 90 when my FSH was 9 point something, so this is something to be excited about.

My mind quickly started to spin. "Is it the weight loss? The DHEA? I started drinking again. Maybe not worrying about the wine and relaxing is working? I've been eating dairy even though I'm allergic. Could that have helped? Hmm, I haven't been eating carbs. Maybe keeping my glucose down is working? Hmmm, it's been five months since my treatment with Dr. Hungarian. He DOES say to wait 4 to 6 months for the full effects of the treatment to show. Is that what explains it?"

You can see how my mind works and churns out idea after idea. It's actually quite exhausting. I wish I could turn it off, but I can't. I just can't.

So back to my meeting with Dr. Generous. There I was, on the U/S table, and Dr. Generous says to me, "Okay...1, 2, 3, 4, 5 follicles on the right ovary. And let's look at the left...oh, wow...that's a big one. Hmm...yes you've got a cyst on the left side."

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!

After 10 days of birth control pills you would think my ovaries would have the sense to just quiet the hell down.

But no. Not MY ovaries.

Dr. Generous' brain quickly went to work. Paraphrasing...the next words out of her mouth went something like, "Maybe I'll take you off the pill. Have you trigger with HCG and then we'll add in estrace...wait...before I get carried away I'll confer with Dr. S and we'll put our head together and figure out what's best."

All I could do was lay there, my black socks in the fuzzy blue stirrups, thinking, "Shit, is this the same cyst that just won't go away?"

I sauntered back to the waiting room after my vitals were taken and waited with my mom to meet with the clinical coordinator. She called me in and proceeded to go over what the two doctors had concluded.

As it is, I'm to cease my birth control pills right away. I'll be back on Friday for another U/S to see if the cyst is large enough for a trigger. If yes, I'll trigger right away, start estrace 6 days later, and then wait for my AF to arrive. Then I'll go straight to lupron and stims. No BCPs as they're evidently useless as far as my body is concerned. If not, I guess I'll wait a day or two and then trigger. No doubt they'll want me in for another $220 U/S to make sure it's gone. Ugh. It just never ends.

We're not slated for ICSI and they want me to grow my embies to day 5 but ONLY if we have 7 or more. If we have 6 or less, we'll do day 3 transfers with assisted hatching. I'm sort of confident we'll have 7 or more so I'm a bit relieved that we'll save the additional $600 cost that is assessed for ICSI, and the $600 for AH. Every bit helps, you know? I'm also going to buy my meds on FGS unless anyone has anything spare to sell (eg, menopur, gonal-f, vivelle, estrace, etc). Shoot me an email if you have meds to sell. :-)

So, all I can say is that it sure will be interesting to see what happens with this cycle. I'm being primed with estrogen: something that hasn't been done before. Supposedly it's supposed to help with egg quality from what a friend tells me. It's not something I've researched before so I'll be up late tonight with Dr. Google trying to find out if that's true or not.

All in all, I'm feeling quite comfortable with my new slew of doctors. I hope that the honeymoon doesn't end, ever.