5DP3DT
Spent about 7 hours in the car today driving from our place near NYC to Philadeliphia to pick up the BF's two boys while he was returning from a business trip on the West Coast. I didn't think I'd be in the car THAT much but the weather was really bad and it took forever to get there and another forever to get back.
The oldest of the two kids near demanded that we stop at Target on the way back to our place so that he could buy a Batman toy that his dad had promised him. As if they need more toys in our 1000SF apartment? Maybe if we ever get furniture and shelves for them to store their things, but as it is, the 2nd bedroom is a veritable disaster zone of toys, bedding, clothes, computer gear, and clear totes with things that will never ever be unpacked. I don't understand why children today have SO MANY freaking toys. I really don't. What is it with society today that parents feel the need to buy toys up the wazoo? I swear to god if I ever get knocked up that I will NOT be like that. I won't. Never. I am a bit of a neat freak and it would just make me crazier than I already am to have crap laying everywhere all the time.
Am I stressed from the drive? I'm not sure. I don't think so. Driving's sorta zen to me. I don't even play the radio at all. Not once in the 7 hours. I just drive and think. Drive and have my internal dialogue going on. Drive and plot. I think I'm unusual in that I do that.
So on the cycle front I'm now doing 200mg of progesterone every 12 hours...hoping that if there's anything in there with half a chance of growing that this will give it a little extra incentive. This morning's POAS looked a hair fainter than yesterday's.
My girlfriend "J" said that you can't feel implantation. True? Really? I always thought that many women say they have cramping, spotting, or something heralding the blessed event. My mother had no symptoms at all with me...and didn't know she was knocked up til the 4th month. I find that hard to believe. Maybe she just wasn't paying attention? I sorta think that many women in the 1950's and 1960's were a bit out of tune with their bodies, ya know?
I do have a wee bit of cramping but I reckon that's just from the progesterone, especially since I've kicked it up 100%. I'm going to run out end of day Tuesday at this rate so I'll have to find myself a compounding pharmacy rather fast and get a refill.
The oldest of the two kids near demanded that we stop at Target on the way back to our place so that he could buy a Batman toy that his dad had promised him. As if they need more toys in our 1000SF apartment? Maybe if we ever get furniture and shelves for them to store their things, but as it is, the 2nd bedroom is a veritable disaster zone of toys, bedding, clothes, computer gear, and clear totes with things that will never ever be unpacked. I don't understand why children today have SO MANY freaking toys. I really don't. What is it with society today that parents feel the need to buy toys up the wazoo? I swear to god if I ever get knocked up that I will NOT be like that. I won't. Never. I am a bit of a neat freak and it would just make me crazier than I already am to have crap laying everywhere all the time.
Am I stressed from the drive? I'm not sure. I don't think so. Driving's sorta zen to me. I don't even play the radio at all. Not once in the 7 hours. I just drive and think. Drive and have my internal dialogue going on. Drive and plot. I think I'm unusual in that I do that.
So on the cycle front I'm now doing 200mg of progesterone every 12 hours...hoping that if there's anything in there with half a chance of growing that this will give it a little extra incentive. This morning's POAS looked a hair fainter than yesterday's.
My girlfriend "J" said that you can't feel implantation. True? Really? I always thought that many women say they have cramping, spotting, or something heralding the blessed event. My mother had no symptoms at all with me...and didn't know she was knocked up til the 4th month. I find that hard to believe. Maybe she just wasn't paying attention? I sorta think that many women in the 1950's and 1960's were a bit out of tune with their bodies, ya know?
I do have a wee bit of cramping but I reckon that's just from the progesterone, especially since I've kicked it up 100%. I'm going to run out end of day Tuesday at this rate so I'll have to find myself a compounding pharmacy rather fast and get a refill.
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musicmakermomma said ... (8:40 AM) :
post a commentHey, I just found your blog again through IVF 40+, and I can't believe I haven't been following your story! Sounds like things are going really well, hoping you have fabulous news in a few more days.
I have felt implantation on one of my cycles, but when I actually carried to term (non-IVF) I felt nothing. Did notice I was pg because I was throwing up constantly about 6 weeks along. Now that I'm MUCH more aware of my body, I did notice imp. one time, but not the other BFP. My third cycle was a BFN.
Best of luck to you - and I'm sure you've heard these stories a million times, but here's my hopeful tale: my BFF (who is 50) was born to a 44 yo mother back in the day. This comforts me to know even without IVF there are people out there at 44 (and more) having babies. Hopefully you and I will be adding to that statistic very soon!