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Thursday, February 11, 2010

CD7: Living Life Without Regret

I saw the best quote over on Endo-a-Go-Go:

Regret for things we did can be tempered by time;
it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable.
--Sydney J. Harris


That is precisely why I keep doing IVF. I cannot bear the thought of what it is to reach my golden years and wonder: what if I'd done one more cycle while I had that darned IVF benefit? I know that I would torture myself with that guilt, that heart break.

I also cannot imagine what it would be like to reach my golden years without a child.

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Anonymous amanda said ... (11:53 AM) : 

That is a great quote. I'm really, really hoping for you!

And with regards to your last post, I do hope that you'll end up with help with the PIO, but if not, you can do it. I didn't ever think I'd be able to do it myself either, but at one point I ended up having to self eject PIO in a McDonald's bathroom. Fun times.

 

Blogger maxandzuzu said ... (5:07 PM) : 

That is a good quote. I know how you feel. I've tried to not let myself think that I will never have a child. I don't want to think it. Yet it keeps creeping back in. There is a blog that I love called: http://theroadlesstravelledlb.blogspot.com/

If you've never read her, you must read her 1/8/10 and her New Year's post. She's very insightful.

I noticed that you'd had a myomectomy, so did I. Do you think that we might have any complications due to scarring? I don't know many people that've had one.

I wish you much luck with cycle! Stay positive.

 

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elevated NKs
NKUs
3 +APAs (2 borderline)
heterozygous MTHFR A1298C
Slightly low thyroid.

dq-α:
me: 1.1, 4.1
dh: 1.2, 3.1 we parted

Low LADs were treated in Mexico and elsewhere with LIT
Anti-sperm antibodies
Article: LIT and the FDA

No: ANAs, normal TH1/TH2 Cytokine ratio, or x-DNA/Histones.

SMA Carrier

IF Treatments:
-Clomid #1: Sep 2005
-Clomid #2: Sep 2005
-HSG (tubes barely open): Oct 2005
-Lap/Chromo (cyst removed; tubes clogged): Oct 2005
-Nat'l IUI: Nov 2005
-IVF #1: Jan 2006, β1=2.0, β2=0.9
-IVF #2: May 2006, β1=<1.0
-Myomectomy (5), salpingectomy (both), & endo removed via lap on 6.6.6
-LIT#1 in Nogales: Jun 2006
-LIT#2: Jul 2006
-FET #1: Sep 2006, β1=2.48, β2=<2.0
-Dr. Hungarian Dx Oct 2006
-Dr. Hungarian Tx Dec 2006-Mar 2007
-IVF#3: Mar 2007 Canceled myself right before retrieval
-IVF#3 Take 2: Apr/May 2007 Canceled due to dominant follicle
-IVF#3 Take 3: Aug 2007, β1<2.0
-IVF#4: Mar 2009 - Canceled due to my flipping out over donor sperm
- Hysteroscopy - Jul 2009 -IVF#4 Take 2: Jul 2009 - Canceled due to fibroid found during hysteroscopy - Myomectomy: Jul 2009
-IVF#4 Take 3: Aug 2009 - Canceled due to ovarian cyst
-IVF #4 Take 4: Oct 2009 - Antagon Cycle β1<1.0
- HSG, Cyst Aspiration on Left Ovary, Sclerotherapy on Endometrioma on Right Ovary: 29 Oct 09
-IVF #5: Nov-Dec 2009 - Adding in HGH one way or another

Pre-ET
Feng Shui'd the House
500mg Zithromax starting with stims
4 LIT Treatments
17 Weeks of Humira or Enbrel
30g IVIg CD5 of IVF cycle (day 2 or 3 of stims)
30g IVIg 2 days before transfer
1mg Dexamethazone starting with stims
40mg Lovenox, 1X's/Day, 2X's a day if BFP
0.0375mg Synthroid
Lexapro
Prenatal
Folguard 2.2Methyl folate
Extra 1g C (Stop at ET)
Extra 1g Calcium
Extra 400mg E (Stop at ET)
Nettle Tea & Capsules
2g Bromelain
Extra D3
Keep BMI<24
4-6g Fish Oil/Day
Baby Aspirin
Eating Loads of Protein!
Nettle Caplets
Femoral Massage (Stop at ET)
Acupuncture (Stop at ET)
TCM Diet: No cold or slippery foods
Immune Friendly Diet: No non-sprouted wheat, sugar, starches. Little fruit.
No nightshades
No caffeine
No coffee, not even decaf
No soy when in cycle
10 days Doxycycline

Day of Transfer
Light activity

Post ET Changes
Visualization
200mg progesterone capsules
Take it easy days 2&3
No sex til beta#1
Cut out egg yolks (contains immunogenic acid)

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